What I am thinking about during sex...

While having the hottest, wettest, sex ever today; do you want to know what I was thinking about?  Well, it sure as hell wasn't subs!  LOL!  I think only of my husband.  How he is able to do what no others can; multiple orgasms.  He can please me, more than any sub ever could, he is amazing!  I love how a real man feels, looks, and tastes!  I adore when we're close, breathing hard, and know what the other is thinking.  That will never be any of you!  He gives the best oral, best orgasms, and certainly knows what I like.  We are so in sync, so utterly compatible, and completely in love!  Our sex life has been nonexistent for a while (due to his travels), however, it's back and better than ever!  I know you can't wait to see the pics of us; laughing, smiling, lying on the sofa, happily married, and knowing you'll never have that.  I'll be uploading them when I get my new computer.  For now you imagine my bliss...HAHAHA! 

I had fun last night torturing subs!

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Merry Christmas! What did you give?

This is the time of year to be selfless and to give.  I have been very generous this year and the boys who have been receiving know who they are.  Today has been absolutely fabulous!  Great food, awesome gifts, and even better sex!  That's right, my husband was home today and saw, tasted, and touched every part of me that you all covet so  much.  The Brazilian wax was icing on the cake, too!  Even though he was only home briefly, we enjoyed every minute together.  I just love that boys are eager to please me and him! hehehehe
Next week I'll be out and about quite a bit (even with my cast, ugh) with some very important meeting and appointments.  I also want to get my new computer next week so I can get right back to teasing, denying, humiliating, and laughing at all my good boys.  With my new computer I'll be able to make more videos, take more pics, and bring more to their knees. lol  I can't wait to make more foot tease clips and edit some really sexy pics.  But alas, this cast won't be off before Thursday and only then will it (potentially) be put into a walking cast.  *sighs*
Anyway, my good bitches will be well rewarded and the naughty (not in a good way, either) will be...well, nothing.  They have no place in my life.  The only subs and slaves I keep in my company are those that know their place and show the utmost respect.  I also have my eyes on some cool new toys, so check out my amazon wish lists.
Finally, since this is the time of year to give I will give all of you the chance to worship me.  You may download this one pic, set it as your desk top, make it your screen saver, kneel, bow, and pray to it.  Then you may approach me via email only after sending your tribute.  Ms.AboveandBeyond@hotmail.com

PUSSY PUSSY PUSSY

Everything revolves around pussy in in one way or another.  Some have one, some are one, and most are trying to close to them.  I cherish mine!
Today I decided to get my first Brazilian wax.  I was so nervous and it hurt like hell, but I know its going to be so worth it!  So smooth and soft; and only for my hubby.
I want a pussy slave.  Get on your knees, beg, and plead to be allowed such a privilege.  This will be fabulous because they won't actually be allowed to see, touch, or taste what they covet so much.  They will, however, be teased relentlessly, ensure all waxing is paid for, and for a special treat, they will  shop for panties.  Special shopping assignments will be included as well as some forced fem tasks...Oh what fun!

My kindness is all you need. My power is strongest when you are weak.

I thrive on your vices and prey on your fears...I want it all.  Leave your pride at your "big shot" job, let your wife sleep, and beg me for my time.  Some boys are so quick approach me with "hey baby", or some other lame horseshit.  That is proof that they're inferior.  I couldn't give two shits about these ignorant little shits.  I do, however, thoroughly enjoy the bonds I have with my boys; my good boys, that never disappoint me, and are always happy to see me.  I suppose they are more like my puppies.  I have absolutely no sexual interest in them, I keep them around for my amusement, and sometimes (when they're especially good) they get a treat.  So for all the good boys (and puppies, lol) out there, you may call me on NF, send me lavish gifts, and earn your place among the rest of the litter.  Now, with very limited internet, NF is your best chance of getting my time.  You may buy my pics and worship accordingly.  Once I have my new computer, I'll be adding to my nite flirt pics, uploading some foot worship clips, and organizing my hard drive.  I also will be uploading some new pics of some very dirty panties.  Tomorrow I will be heading to the waxing salon for my first Brazilian wax.  I know it'll be amazing (after the pain goes away)! So much to do!  I just love all the gifts I get from all of my good puppies and sluts!  Maybe after I settle back into a routine and get my cast off I will be able to post more often.  Next week is going to be SUPER busy, I have appointments almost everyday. Anyway, time to shower.  Email and nite flirt are the best ways to reach me!  

Nite Flrit update

So while being immobile, I have decided to utilize this time.  I am getting creative with nite flirt, my pics and financial domination.  Yes, greedy me.  LOL!  Whatever!  Anyway, you can try to impress me.  The "painful pretty package wrapping" task will be lots of fun, for me, that is.  And I am adding more pics to be purchased...some naughty, some nice.  I also had an adventure this weekend wearing my new latex skirt.  That was very interesting with my foot in a cast!  Unfortunately I think I have already ruined it with my fingernails.  You can replace it or add to my new found obsession.  Pics are also going to be on NF. 
So, while others are out doing some last minute preparations for the holidays, you will be handing over all your Christmas cash to see my pics and hear my voice!  I will make sure you have a very merry (painful and broke too) Christmas.  That will ensure that mine is jolly too!  While I relax and recuperate you can give me a happy holiday season! 

Pretty package wrapping task

 3 pics of me in a latex skirt

3 SUPER sexy pics!

   

Holidays and stuff

Well, since my holiday season has come to a screaming halt;  I have decided to make the best of a shitty situation.  I want lots of goodies to keep me busy.  I have added a new Christmas wish list at amazon that includes movies, games, toys, and other assorted items that will keep me entertained.  This is terribly frustrating since I had lots to do this holiday season, but now I am basically going to kick back, relax, and enjoy a quiet Christmas.  I also am considering a "package wrapping" task for NF.   I will also be adding new pics to NF and sneak peeks here.  I can validate you and give your life meaning...let me in so I can take over!

Foot update

Before the break on Wednesday morning.

My new foot wear. :(

The beginning of the week started off swimmingly; shopping, teasing, denying, etc., the usual basically.  On Wednesday, while putting on a pair of jeans, I broke my foot.  I know, it's nothing kinky or exciting, but that is how it happened.  I had one leg on and went to pull on the other leg (my 7 FAM jeans, I love them btw).  When I pushed my left foot through the leg and put my weight down, I heard the most god awful snap and fell.  I have had my feet "pop" before and that wasn't the same thing.  So after a few hours of blinding pain, trying to find a doctor and calling my insurance company, I drove myself to the hospital.  2 hours later it was confirmed, my foot was broken.  They wrapped it in a soft bandage and a hideous shoe.   I was told to see an orthopedic by the end of the week and sent on my merry way.  **Mind you they didn't even give me crutches.**  Anyway, yesterday I went to the orthopedic.  They also x rayed my foot, set it, and put a cast on.  For the next 2 weeks I will be sporting a lovely, red, hard cast.  It sucks!  I had to buy crutches, which hurt too and I hate being immobile.  I am far too independent and stubborn to have a little break hold me back, but alas, I don't have much of a say.  It will be at least 2 weeks before I am able to walk without crutches. So I am stuck in a cast for x mas.  Happy holidays, right?  Anyway, my freshly pedicured toes didn't go to waste, as lots of people had the chance to admire them. 

My days...

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Happy holidays to ME

Something fun for all the subs out there.  A holiday shopping and tribute game where everyone wins (especially ME).  First step is to send a tribute, gift, or gift card (bonus points if yours it the one that buys the macBook I want).  Then the sub that sends the best gift or largest tribute will get a special treat (depending on the gift/tribute).  Now on to my weekly updates.
Last week pedidog sent me a pedicure.  I went to a new place and when I got home realized that they didn't paint the front edges of my toenails.  FUCKERS!  I have also already ruined my manicure.  New slut is doing well, for the most part, anyway.  Making contact can be difficult while traveling and with a family, but otherwise he's a good slut.  Also, I had some fun playing with jester and binky fag, pics will be coming soon.  I am also in a kinky/greedy kind of mood.  I want to shop, with your  money (gift cards are preferred), on team viewer, while your cock and balls are bound.  I want to see the look on your face as I spend and take as much as I want.  Being the greedy bitch I am, I get an adrenaline rush from seeing you squirm.  I adore the feeling of power I have when I take over a computer and a wallet.  I am also thinking about a gambling game of sort, roulette/dice/poker; and that will be interesting as there are many outcomes possible.  I am also on a mission to increase my boot and shoe collection.  I want over the knee brown boots, thigh high red boots, and more patent leather pumps (I am liking the mary janes).  I am hoping that my husband will be home for a quick visit for x-mas, but I don't know yet.  If he is, in fact coming home (even briefly), I am going to need new lingerie, a Brazilian wax, and some super sexy shoes.  I did, however, get my first piece of latex clothing.  I am SO excited too.  I have no idea what to wear with it, but I am sure I'll figure out something.  Red boots and a red corset would be awesome (check my amazon wish list)!  I am going to enjoy a beautiful sunny South Florida day.

Busy me!

With the holidays rapidly approaching, my availability will be quite random.  Obviously, good boys/ generous boys, will be privy to such scheduling.  I have recently come across a few more items I want for X-mas.  I want the ps3/LED bundle, iPad, and an iPod touch.  Anyway, I get such a thrill when I take boys money, mail out a pair of filthy panties, or give a time limit for release (and they fail).  Boys eager to cum always are easy to torture and fun to manipulate.  So with that being said, I had lots of fun teasing my pedidog the other day, lol.  Yesterday was spent running errands (almost literally), in boots, horrid weather, and awful traffic.  Today I'll be around and about; relaxing, resting my sore feet, and finishing up a few projects.  Also, those that want my attention, to be drained financially, or pics; keep in mind, you are in MY world and need to be respectful of MY schedule.  My trivia game is now available via appointments...So I can abuse you and drain you all at the same time.  I LOVE the power I have over eager, horny, slutty boys.  Financial domination is what I love, but I also love to inflict pain.  I also love to reward good boys with teasing, chastity, and panties.  Speaking of chastity, teasing, and panties; my newest slut is and eager beaver to be locked in chastity while wearing my dirty panties.  He's going to be a good slut and earn that privilege.  I look forward to sharing pics of him in them.  I am out of cigarettes so I'll be going to the store soon.  I have lots of projects I want to do.  Stroking tasks, videos, C4S store, and add more recorded lines to Nite Flirt...Busy me!  I want a new computer so I can maximize my productivity.  Get to it!  If you think you can handle it and are eager to please me, then you may contact me; as I won't chase you down.    

Trivia Night...

I thought it would be lots of fun to put some of my miscellaneous music and movie knowledge to use.  I'll be having an on cam, (and maybe mic) trivia night.  It is $15 to enter, financial penalties for incorrect answers, and rewards (humiliation, pain, etc.) for correct answers.  Incorrect answers equals points, each point is $5.  Each participant will IM me their answers, NO cheating (honor system & you'll be on cam), and a 15 second time limit to respond.  If the time limit expires it will be considered incorrect.  It is a random and varied list of questions (some easy and some not).  There are25 questions and to quit early will cost $50.  Anyway, this will begin tonight @ 9pm est.,  location TBD, and be prepared with toys, cam, and cash!  TONS of fun!

Click here to buy my YIM and cover your entry fee!

Well now you've gone and done it.

As of yesterday my computer is dead.  Well, on life support right now.  It is old and served it purpose, but now it is time to say good bye.  I am going to try to be around as much as possible; however, I really don't know how much time that will be.  Let me back up and preface this with:  You sorry, fucking, subissives;  you want pics, videos, and chat, and have the balls (more like rasins, really) to call ME greedy.  Yes, I am a greedy bitch.  SO WHAT?!?!  Why else would someone like me spend any time with you.  Get over it.  I LOVE financial domination, and I enjoy it as much as you enjoy me.  Do you really think that it doesn't take my time, my money, and my energy to do all I do.
Well, here is a little hint;  if I don't have a computer to do this then I won't be online.  Then you can find someone else's time to waste.  Useless, fucking, losers.  Any subs that think they're clever; well, they're usually the dumbest.  Regardless of what your opinion of findom is; actually, I don't really care about your opinions.  I care about me, my wants, and my computer.  Stop being a pussy, reach into your tight wallet, and show some appreciation.
I rarely belittle, judge, or degrade subs, unless they are worthy of such a privilege; but all the whores, sluts and dogs etc.  should have better manners.  I offer a great privilege, yet pathetic, little, fuckers can't seem to show any appreciation.  (Yes, I do mean financially!)
I actually had a sub tell me that a computer would be a good Christmas gift from my husband.  Seriously, WTF?!?!  Pathetic!  My husband's gifts to me are no one's business, but they are usually diamonds.  So, take your small pecker somewhere else.  Besides, if that is what I wanted him to get me, he would.  I don't.  I want you silly, fucking, retards, to buy it.  Its how you get your jollies anyway.  Probably sitting there stroking right now as you read this, just because I am calling names.  *pfft*  Anyway, amazon has the computer I want, actually, they have a few I like.  You may send gift cards to my email, buy it out right (best option) or send cash via greendot.  I don't care how I get it, I just want a new computer.  I am very rough with them and their fragile parts, so get to it...buy my computer and then I will spend some of MY time with you.
While the old computer is still on life support, I will be around via NF and email.  Also I'll be adding a smart phone to the list of "Stuff I want", that is not my husband's responsibility to buy either.  For all the good boys, there will be rewards...if I feel they have earned them.  Now I have to try and resuscitate the computer again.  Actually, no, I think I'll read a book,  take a nap,  and have a nice hot shower.

Fuck off.

That's all.
I'm not here to be your friend, mother, or wife.
I am not here to find a lover.
I don't fucking care.
Remember, you need ME.
I have been more than generous with my time.
No more.
I don't want to hear your excuses.
No need to apologize.
I don't fucking care.
Don't fucking bother.
I am changing my YIM, removing most of my pics/vids, and so on.
I will continue to sell my panties and can be found on NF.
There will be a select few privy to my new YIM, pics, etc.
And the rest of you can fuck off. 

SHOPPING!!! Black Friday AND Cyber Monday!!!

Tomorrow is Black Friday!  YAY!!!
I can't wait to (REALLY) start shopping and getting all kinds of goodies.  I just adore all the good boys that give me their hard earned money, so I can have all the things I want.  Anyway, there are TONS of awesome sales, and I am eager to see what cyber Monday holds.  There better be gobs of gift certificates in my email, too!  There are plenty if links to the stores I like on here, so NO EXCUSES!  This is the time for GIVING!  So get to it!
I will soon be adding tasks to my Nite Flirt page.  There will be all sorts of edging, forced intox, and feminizing tasks, for anyone to participate in.  I do love to hand out assignments and I always win the prizes. *snickers*  So for those that dare to partake in some of my wicked games, financial domination, or feminizing, check out my NF.  Click here to see it.  GO NOW! LOL
I might have to break down and get a PC only because they are going to be SO ridiculously cheap.  I hate having to settle, though.  I REALLY want a macBook.  BTW, it's on my amazon wish list. *hint*hint*  I digress.  I'll be updating wish lists more, be sure to show your love, all gift cards & money pack info goes to my email: Ms.AboveandBeyond@hotmail.com
So get to it and make sure you end up on MY "nice list", fuck Santa and his coal, I'm not that generous to the truly "naughty".  Keep in mind I am good (sometimes) *chuckles* to those, that are VERY good to me. 

Take Take Take

A lot of subs are so willing to take, ask, and beg.  I am willing to give, play, and torture until I have had enough.  I am so sick of fake subs that can't rub together 2 brain cells and form an intelligent thought.   I can't stand it when I get spammed & tons of questions that are already answered here.  If they think by pissing me off, wasting my time, or lying will get them abused or humiliated; they're terribly mistaken.
I am also compiling a database of time wasters to be shared among others in the online community.  So, by wasting my time (or the attempt to, anyway) will land you there.  Boys that behave will keep their place on my good side and at my feet.
Anyway, I sent sassysub a pair of panties.  He hasn't been behaving lately, so he is waiting to open them.  He has a writing assignment to complete today then, perhaps, I'll let him open them.  I will be sure to take pics to share with everyone.  Last night while I was feeling crappy, mark made me smile by wearing a pink thong and purple nighty.  The other day, binky fag was eager to perform, silly little slut.  She is still a slut in training, but maybe there is still hope for her.  Last week pedidog was with his family, and all he could think of was my sexy feet.  I made sure to tease him relentlessly while his wife was in the other room.  He'd rather jerk off to my feet than have sex with his wife, lol!  Silly foot bitch, my feet will always be better than his wife!
I am hoping to get my new shoes today and bunches of other goodies.  I will always welcome those that are truly selfless, unfortunately, they are rare.  For those that aren't, you may contact me via email or Nite Flirt.

My pussy hurts, really, it does.

Today I went to the doctor to get birth control.  My husband will be home (for good) in about 6 months and I don't want to get knocked up.  The first trip to the doctor was the usual annual stuff, never fun but necessary.  I inquired about a few different types of birth control & was told to research it myself.  That response should have been a red flag.  So I did.  I, however; am not a doctor, nor did I go to med school, and I don't deal with the side effects or advantages of the different forms of birth control.
So after much debate and for personal reasons, I decided on ParaGard.  It is a non hormonal intrauterine device (IUD) and lasts for up to 10 years.  Sounded good to me.  I should have asked about the insertion (they probably would have told me to research that too).
Now, this is where I'm confused.  Last night I spoke with a friend who had talked to someone that had one inserted.  I was very nervous and a little scared.  Well, long story short, she said it shouldn't hurt.  The crazy fucking quack doctor I went to needs his balls opened and pulled out for what he did (or how he did it, or for just being an asshole).  I digress.
I certainly did not expect this to be a walk in the park.  I also didn't expect the most horrendous pain ever.  Seriously, worse than labor pains.  He didn't dilate my cervix, no anesthetic/pain killer, and NO compassion.  IDK what I was expecting, but definitely NOT THAT!!!  Ok, granted, I don't have a high threshold for pain; but this was ridiculous.  It felt like (what I imagine) a coat hanger abortion.  Then, after what seemed like an eternity of disembowelment, and everything was done; I sat up to see the nurse rinsing the speculum in the sink.  Again, I didn't go to med school, but that is just fucking gross.    
I dressed as quickly as possible and left equally as quick.  I think I have been in a mild state of shock all day (and miserable with cramps).  I've been kinda weak & just relaxing today. 
Oh, and I woke up this morning with a kidney infection, so I've been drinking lots of water.  UGH!      

Last 2 days

I have been so busy I can barely see straight!
I finally set up my Nite Flirt account.  I have already started x-mas shopping.  I am STILL in search of a free screen saver maker.  I did have a bit of fun with sassysub last night though.  He is only allowed to release every other day.  Since he is quite sassy, and didn't seem to take his writing task seriously, his release was made a little more difficult.  He had to stroke with icyhot; which he didn't realize what was in store for him.  He danced a little jig and typed something about his dog. LMAO!!! After that he returned to his chair, only for me to find out he removed the clothes pins assigned to his balls were removed pre stroking. *GRR*  He was given 3 minutes to release.  Needless to say, sassysub is to stay chaste until Saturday.  I also spent most of Monday & Tuesday setting up NF and shopping  for Xmas.  I also received a pretty pair of panties from sassy, very similar to his pair, but in black!  There will be more to come since I am trying to post more often.

Play time with jeff

Today I had some unexpected fun with jeff.  I had sent him a pair of my dirty panties last month, so I am sure they were quite ripe by now.  I had him put them on and rub his nipples with sandpaper.  Then he was told to pinch and twist them (hard).  After that, he was instructed to insert his (cum through) penis plug; which he has become quite experienced with.  Then I had him apply suckers from a snake bite kit followed by clothes pins.  He was instructed to begin stroking but was not allowed to cum.  After "getting close" he was instructed to  fetch the ginger he had purchased.  As the wax in the candle accumulated, jeff peeled and cut the ginger.  I could tell the anticipation and anxiety was building, I love that!  While soaking the ginger, I had him drip the hot wax on his clamped nipples, his reactions were GREAT!  To see the pain in his face was exhilarating!  While the wax was cooling it was time to insert the ginger.  I told him to sit and stroke.  Now, he had clothes pins & wax on his nipples, stainless steel in his penis, ginger in his ass, and my panties on, AWESOME!  Unfortunately, while stroking, jeff came without permission.  That is a big "NO NO".  He was instructed to eat the mess he made; which he seemed to enjoy a little too much,  then he was told to remove the ginger and eat that as well.  I think the "ass ginger" was a little less pleasant. LOL  Check out some of the pics!  Also after we were done, he had an appointment, he wore my panties to go car shopping! YAY!

BUSY BUSY!

Last week has been SUPER busy!  TONS of shopping, playing, teasing...wow!
I have added a new "boy", that is now being considered.  I'll start by saying he is very inexperienced and very bold.  That is how he has gotten the name that I now call him.  He is to be addressed as "sassysub" now.  Since he is so new, we have started with a consideration contract for 6 weeks.  After that, we'll have to see how he improves.  Now, he is getting guidance and structure.  He has to send me a journal entry everyday, wear his new panties as directed, and learn some proper manners.  I am enjoying his company and hope he successfully completes all tasks.  He will, eventually, be a well rounded submissive when can learn to keep in the right mindset.  He bought his first pair of panties and pics are going to be posted on the "subs" page.
Also making an apearance on the "subs" page is pedidog.  He adores my feet so much that they are going to take over him completely.  I'm sure his peer and co-workers in vanilla life think he's some big shot, when in reality he is my foot bitch and NOTHING MORE!  The only purpose in his life is to please my feet.  He is allowed to bow for them and adore them.  He is also responsible for their shoes, which, "Are better than his wife". lol  He wants nothing more than to have the chance to catch a peek of them or my filthy flip flops.  I think if I were to let that bitch lick the grime off my shoes he'd be overcome with ecstasy and maybe even faint!
I have also been doing quite a bit of shopping.  My latest goal was to find the perfect pair of jeans.  Well, I already have a pair of 7 FAM, but (as usual) I wanted MORE! lol  I ended up getting 3 pairs of Levis which are ok, I guess.   I also got a new Chanel bag and LOVE it!  My new goal is red boots and pull on black thigh high boots, as well as a latex skirt.  My panties are selling like hotcakes so get them now!  And that reminds me, I need to stock up on more.  Anyway, I've been super busy and I want to post more often, but there is only 1 ME! 

Bitches and dogs

So, little bitch, "shaggy" has been defiant and disobedient.  Needless to say, the little slut was (and will continue) to be punished.  I have assigned him a mission to be penetrated.  He, however, (being a stupid little bitch) refuses to ensure that this happens.  When shaggy finally found one who'd have his ass, he wouldn't take into consideration their schedule.  Seriously?  WTF?  The slut has found another cock to suck and perhaps this time he'll male sure it happens.  His ass will be used and he'll suck cock like the dirty whore he is. 
I have a new worshiper, pedidog, a filthy dog who is nothing more than a footstool.  My feet are more beautiful than his wife, more important than his job, and more precious than all of his possessions.  He lives and breaths for my sweaty, filthy, flip flops.  My soles are all he needs and he'll sacrifice his pride and anything else my feet want.  My feet want his wedding band as a toe ring!
Mark was a bit feisty last week.  He was told to get blue panties, I didn't care if he had to use his wife's, buy them, or borrow a pair.  He failed.  He did, however, dress in his wife's cami and panties as well as, stockings and heels.  Since he failed to find blue panties, he had to sleep in his heels. LOL
I am looking forward to having some playtime with jeff, especially since I have yet to see him in the panties I sent him...
Also, be sure to check out all the pages in this blog.  I have tons of great pics!  And who knows, you might learn something!

Last week's updates

After some playing with samuel and jeremy in chat last week I have found a new appreciation for improvisation and disdain for lacking in preparedness.   Unfortunately, last week butt slut fell ill; thus no progress there.  After I regained consciousness, I was wondering why I hadn't received any pics or updates.  Over the weekend I got an email saying butt slut was "delirious with fever".  Last night, jeremy (who never has ANYTHING) had ice in his ass and orally cleaned up the mess when it melted.  I also gave him 1 minute to gather as many household items as he could to better torture him with.  As far as samuel goes, he is owned (I know that and have no desire to own him).  Anyway,  I had him bind himself tightly (only briefly) and slowly stroke.  It was painful and when asked if he wanted to cum all he could say was, "I am afraid to answer."  LOL
I had told mark to dress up for me and send a pic, he's such a sexy bitch in stockings and heels!
Also this weekend, little bitch "shaggy" disappeared. *tsk*tsk*  He was to be mounted this weekend and failed. *GRRR*
I would like to say "welcome back" to joseph, as we are getting back to normal. YAY! Eventually, he'll be locked into his chastity device and I will be the only one with the key.
On another note, I have added some pics to my collection and I always have panties for sale.  Take a look. 

PUKE!

As many may know Tuesday was my birthday.  I spent the day shopping for a dress to wear to dinner.  That evening, the fam and I went to a lovely restaurant on the water and had a lovely dinner...That night the flu struck...it wasn't pretty.  I spent the next 36 hours tending to the ill.  There was puke everywhere, no sleep for me, doctors appointments, and so on.  Thursday night I went to bed.  At 1 am I woke up to that clammy sweat we all know so well.  With my stomach churning, I made my way to the toilet and proceeded to vomit.  With very few breaks in the routine (I won't get too graphic), this sequence of events repeated for the next 6 hours.  I could see the sunrise and knew it  was time to get up.  Unfortunately, between the vomiting and raging fever,  I was very weak.  I have never been so violently ill in at least 20 years.  I ended up back in bed for the rest of the day, sleeping, sweating, etc.  In the afternoon I went outside to smoke, I started to feel dizzy and could tell I was about to faint.  I finally regained consciousness and was told I had a seizure.  WTF?  IDK what happened, but I went back to bed.  It was later Friday evening that I was finally able to keep down some bland soup and water.  I am still very foggy, weak, and sore.  I hope to post a better, more "uplifting" post soon. 

Updates AND BIRTHDAY...

This past week has been very overwhelming and only marginally productive.  Where to start???
I've been quite busy lately; spending a considerable amount of time at fetconnect.com.  I love the layout and all the people are great there.  If you haven't yet, be sure to sign up and hang out.  I digress.

Updates:
MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW!!!
I will be unavailable most of the day.  And expect lots and lots of gifts and birthday wishes.  Also, within the next few weeks I will finally be seeing my husband again on a regular basis.  WOOHOO! 
subs and such:
Yesterday afternoon, I had a lovely time playing with butt slut.  Project stretch is coming along very well.  Bound, wearing cling wrap skirt, large butt plug inserted; butt slut (as always) lived up to his name.  After applying heat cream to his nipples and duct taping his balls, he was allowed to remove the large butt plug (only if cleaned orally).  He did.  Also, for my birthday; he inserted a red birthday candle into his urethra, lit it, turned out the lights and blew it out so I could make a wish.  New pics will be posted soon of butt slut's progress.
I also had a lovely friday afternoon playing with jeff.  I tortured his nipples more than ever.   Constant teasing and denying.  I pushed his limits and loved every minute of it.  Wax, sandpaper, wooded spoon, suction, and of course wearing panties.  Unfortunately, Saturday he was in a car accident.  He and his passengers are well (only minor injuries). 
I believe there is finally someone who'll fuck little bitch, shaggy.  Saturday afternoon he said he's found someone to use him like the whore he is.  He'll be made to wear a collar and leash, bark, and perform as told (like the dirty little slut he is).
I'll be posting more updates and details as time permits.

The Mistress's Creed

I am unsure of the author, as I always give proper credit.      The Mistress's Creed 

 Above all else She cherishes Her
 slave, in the knowledge that the
 gift he/she gives Her is the greatest
 gift of all. She is demanding and
 takes full advantage of the
 power given to Her, but knows
 how to share the pleasure that
 comes from that precious gift.

 She is in control of Herself first
 and foremost, so that She may
 control others. As a stern and
 demanding Mistress, She can
 cause her slave to cry real tears.
 As the consummate lover, She
 will then kiss the tears away,
 without stepping out of
 character.

 In times of trouble, a Mistress will
 leave the roles behind, to be a
 supportive friend and partner, never
 forgetting that this
 is still a loving relationship
 between T/two caring individuals. She 
 is quick to understand the differences 
 between fantasy and reality. She would 
 never ask a slave to put Her before his/her 
 career, or family, just to satisfy Her 
 own pleasure.

 To win Her slave's mind, body, spirit,
 soul, and love, She knows She 
 must first win his/her trust. She will show
 Her slave humor, kindness, and warmth. She
 always him/her that Her guidance and tutoring
 is knowledgeable and deserving of his/her
 attention, that this is a Woman he/she can
 learn from, and trust Her direction.

 She is romantic enough to be protective
 and chivalrous. When called upon, She will 
 fight for Her man's/woman's  honor. She proves to 
 him/her  that She is someone he/she can
 lean on,and depend on.

 When it comes time to teach Her slave his/her
 lessons of obedience,  She is a strong
 and unyielding professor.  She will accept
 no flaw, nothing less than perfection
 from Her student. Never does She use
 discipline without a good reason.
 When She does it is always with a
 knowledgeable and careful hand.
 
 She is always open to communication
 and discussion, always ready to hear
 his/her  wants and needs. She is patient,
 taking time to learn his/her  limits, and
 knowing that as his/her  trust of Her , grows
 so will T/they. he/she  never has to demand ritual
 behavior by him/her . he/she  responds to Her out of
 the want of pleasing Her. Compliance
 comes from the wanting to please, not the
 fear of punishment. She understands
 the fragile nature of mind and body and 
 never violates the trust given to Her.
 
 She is secure enough to laugh at Herself
 and the absurdities of life. Open minded
 enough to learn new things. Strong enough
 to grow. Her tools are mind, body,
 spirit, soul, and love. She understands that
 E/each P/partner gains most from
 pleasuring the O/other. And B/both of T/them
 knows that love and trust are the only
 bindings that truly hold.
 I will be posting my weekly updates later.  Be sure to check back.  Oh, and TOMORROW is my BIRTHDAY!!!

*Sighs*

After a very stressful weekend I was relieved this morning of my anxiety.  The anxiety has been replaced with stress, I'm unsure which is worse.  It was a hectic weekend, to say the least.  Anyway, I have made an application  and I will be posting available positions (which are limited) later.  I am starting to fall back into the swing of things and slowly sorting out some crap.  Needless to say, I have been and will continue to be quite busy.  I also have a pair of panties that I peeled off last night (after wearing for 48 hours) for sale.  Get them while they're "fresh"!  On another note, I finally posted more of butt slut's progress and look forward to more pics!

Last week

For the past few weeks I have had the luxury of being able to take, edit, and upload pics every Sunday.  That luxury has ended.  I was also able to spend the day chatting, shopping, and socializing.  I have been spreading myself too thin; and in my attempts to give everyone a fair chance, I have ultimately sacrificed my own fun.  It's very easy to get caught up with playtime and fun.  It is also selfish to believe that I will always "just be here".  With that being said, I will "be here" for those deserving of my time, energy, and concern.  I believe that it isn't unfair or unreasonable for me to reserve my time for those that are worthy. 
Now, on to some updates.
I am quite proud of butt slut's progress thus far.  His photography skills are fabulous and obedience is extraordinary.  Check out the pics on the "subs" page.
shaggy has been touch and go lately, and is a piss poor excuse for a bitch.
retard has been around and about lately...
Mi dulce niño pequeño de Puerto Rico made an appearance online this week, and always makes me smile.  
panntyslut is new and has a few lessons to learn, probably the hard way too.
With his big move to Vegas, jeff has been quite busy.  I am still seeking a proper tranny for him.
Scotland panty boy has disappointed me for the last time.  No further contact will be allowed.
Sissy mary has been away on business.
Joseph and I have been slowly re-entering the world of a strong D/s bond.  
mark is eager to play and not so eager to show appreciation.*tsk*tsk* 
Anyway, my husband's birthday was Friday and mine is in 9 days.  Be sure to check out all my wish lists!

Some updates and such

The past 4 weeks have been rather hectic in my personal life, although that is not the purpose of this blog.  I've been bitten by the creative bug, but haven't been organized enough to get it all out.  This past weekend I made a corset with duct tape, discovered why I have never worn cling wrap (also inspired by that experience), and spent some time (trying) to relax.
Last week I had the pleasure of chatting with a few new boys.  I have recently started monitoring the progress of (for anonymity reasons) "butt slut's" anal stretching.  It is a mutual decision for butt slut to not be "owned" by me, and that allows  an opportunity for  some "freedom" with some of the projects.  The creative and artistic effort put forth by butt slut is rather impressive. 
Also last week I had the pleasure of being entertained while sunbathing by mark.  The show went as follows:  First he started in his wife's panties (clean), then I had him model his panties, followed by seeking out his wife's dirty panties, then inserting into his mouth the gusset of the wife's (dirty) panties, while still in his own panties he was instructed to slowly stroke himself and tell me when he was going to cum.  That was when he was told to stop everything and remove both pairs of panties.  FUN! FUN!
I also have been taking some pics of my own and been spending quite a bit of time on a new social networking site that is like facebook, but with kink.
FetConnect.Com - A Fetish Network for all your kinky bdsm friends
Anyway, that is where I've been hanging out.  I am also revising my birthday wish list to include: 
Sea salt pedicure
Brazilian and eyebrow waxing @ European Waxing Center
Facial and 90 minute deep tissue massage @ Massage Envy
and
Highlights, low lights, trim and style @ Moda 

A little insight

For all the misanthropic, fake, wanna-be submissive boys:
Don't fucking bother.
You're not fooling anyone.
I see you for what you are.
I am smarter than you.
I don't want anything to do with you.
.
Now, on to real submissive boys (most should know already, but newbies may not yet).
You may approach me (or ANY Domme) in a polite & respectful manner.
Do your home work, read my profile, blogs, and so on BEFORE asking 10,000 questions.
Use some common sense, FFS!
If I am going to be playing with you, be ready/prepared.
I don't do R/T at the moment. However, when I do, you will not be touching me.  If I am to touch you (with my hands feet, crop, cane, etc.), you'll be honored and a grateful. 
Do as you're told.  Obedience is the goal. 
Don't lie, waste my time, or try to manipulate me.
Trickery doesn't work. 
I indulge MY fetishes.  Yours are secondary. 
You are for my amusement, use, and/or entertainment only. 
Do NOT piss me off in an attempt to be used, abused, humiliated, etc.  It won't work.
You are NOT of any sexual interest to me,  my husband is the ONLY one who pleases me sexually.
As stated, I am married.  VERY HAPPILY MARRIED.  You will respect that.

My Fetishes include but are not limited to:
Financial Domination
Teasing
Edge play
Foot (boot/shoe also), Leg, Ass, Breast Worship
Nipple Torture
Cock/Ball Torture
Wax play
Caning
Flogging
Spanking
Hair pulling
Cuckoldry
Humiliation (only for a select few)
Panties, stockings, pantyhose, lingerie, corsets, etc.
Forced Fem.
Chastity
Forced Masturbation
Orgasm control/denial
Bondage
Discipline
Sadism

I want honesty, sincerity, and fun.  If you're chosen to serve me, you'll know.  

Birthday October 26th...take note.

I have had sissy mary go through and pick some items that might suit me.  Some have ben added to my wish lists, some have not.  Here are my Birthday Wish Lists.
Amazon & Universal
Fetish Factory
Nordstrom
I also want a weekend at The Breakers-Superior Suite and Spa (approx. $4,000)

Renovated luxurious one-bedroom suite-600 square feet with master bedroom and attached bathroom with whirlpool tub and separate shower and private living room.

Guest-room experience includes: Flat screen TV and DVD/CD player, radio alarm clock with iPod docking station, in-room movies, Playstation video games, in-room check-out, wireless keyboard, mini bar, hair dryer, private electronic safe, The Breakers private-label toiletries, plush bathrobes and slippers, luxury linens and duvets, exclusive bamboo towels. 

Last weekend and updates

Weekends are always hectic.  I have SO much fun playing with my boys.  I also took a whole bunch of new pics.  I have been doing a bit of local traveling, which is always fun.  Sunday was especially busy, around 4 pm, I realized I hadn't eaten since Saturday.  I went in search of some Chinese food, and couldn't find anything suitable.  So I went to a BBQ restaurant and asked to place a take out order.  As I was ordering. the cashier asked if another customer (whose food was ready) could pay.  I patiently stepped aside as the other customer handed him a credit card.  The cashier asked, "Do you have cash?  Our credit card machine is down."  I was standing there with just my keys and bank card, and half jokingly said, "Well, I guess I am out of luck."  The guy was paying cash for his food and asked how much my dinner was going to be.  He handed the cashier some more cash and was very polite as he left.  Now I know that all restaurants have the old carbon paper credit card machines, for exactly this kind of situation.  I, however, was very pleased with my free dinner.  I had every intention of paying for my meal, but it is always a pleasant surprise to not have to.  I get such a thrill when boys willingly hand over cash to make me happy. 
Some updates
My little bitch-He's been sucking cock to please me.  Last night he was wearing lipstick and panties when the guy came on his face and told him that he was doing a bad job.
sissy mary-Is going to remain chaste until further notice as well as bound for as long as possible daily.
slave jeff-has made the big move to a place where prostitution is legal...YAY for me!  Soon he'll be my whore, to suck cock and have his ass filled for money.
slave "j"- Is now on a schedule for release and chastity.  Limited orgasms, porn, and access to certain sites.
chris-Has been told to lose weight.  His weigh in was yesterday and has yet to tell me the news (gain/loss).  I am always disappointed when there is no change or gain.  Although I can tell that he's getting more toned, because his panties fit much better now.
subbie- Is still trying to impress me with his sweet words.  I always enjoy hearing how much one is devoted to me.
Also, my birthday is on the horizon.  I'll be making a new wish list and planning a get away for a few days. 

What gets me all hot and bothered...

POWER.  CONTROL.  RESPECT.
There is just something about having boys hand over their hard earned cash that excites me.  Whether it's a completely random occurrence, shopping spree, or buying my panties, I always get that warm tingly feeling.   I have always loved knowing they're trying to impress me.  I love anytime they try.  For as long as I can remember, I have had boys tripping over themselves to open my doors, buy my drinks, and doing other activities to entertain me.  Boys that truly want for my happiness, to entertain me, to worship my every word, that is devotion.  I love money, gifts, poetry, art work, and pictures.  I especially enjoy making a boy squirm.  There is a certain thrill that comes with inflicting pain to another, that I have always had.  Now, my kinks may not be your kinks, but it is what it is.

Perfection...

Have you ever had a few minutes of sheer euphoria?  When nothing else matters?  The moment that you never want to end?  It's a feeling of pure perfection.  That moment you say to yourself, "This is it, this is what I've been waiting for!"  And it's better than you could have ever imagined.  Elated, euphoric, and blissful, aren't nearly descriptive enough...

Exceeding expectations

This weekend has been an emotional roller coaster, from one extreme to another (emotionally).  This has lead me to make some serious changes in my life.  I have to really focus on time management, and setting a regular schedule.  I will set a "regular" routine and set (approximately) amount of time for family, fun, and me.  My moods and/or emotions can change with the blink of an eye.  I am still undecided about some other topics, however, I think I already know what needs to be done.  So, happy Sunday. 

Pursuit

The anticipation was exhausting, the disappointment was devastating, the risk was maximum, and once again I found myself apathetic to the consequences.  Accomplishment was the only option.  I fought for what I want, headstrong and determined I pursued my goal.  I chased and battled for what I believe in and won.  The thrill was euphoric.
I continue to push forward daily.
Everyday is one step closer.
Achieving my goals are my top priority.
I will not be pushed aside, denied, or misled.
I will not be lied to, manipulated, or used.
I may be colder, harder, or more cynical because of it, but I have no regrets.  
Now I am even stronger and more determined than ever.

A brief summary

Last week was full of a lot of highs and lows.  I believe great progress has been made with a couple subs, but at the same  time there are also a few less.  Some are completely useless while others continue to flourish.  I do have some really great pics that slave jeff sent and I can't wait to post them!
As far as my weekend went; I wasn't feeling well, along with some personal issues, and some disappointment, it was just kinda blah.  I am going to be posting again tomorrow.  Today is going to be rather busy, I have tons of maintenance to catch up on.   I'll be more detailed later, posting pics, sharing stories, and whatnot.

FFS!

To start, I have been CRAZY busy.  If you're unable to approach me in a polite and respectful manner, FUCK OFF!  Some things shouldn't need to be said.  I always enjoy waking up to e-gift cards, cash, and pics of my subs being creative.  I will be keeping track of progress and posting pics/updates here, for now. 
UPDATES:
little bitch dog, "shaggy"- Has been ordered to find a "top" male to "violate" him.  He is always happy to greet me and eager to please.  Last week we were practicing with a cucumber to get his pussy ready for the real deal (he really should have a butt plug stretching kit to train with).   I also have some lovely pics of the little bitch; on all fours, cucumber in ass, like the whore he is.
slave jeff- While in Vegas, I sent him to suck tranny cock while wearing my panties.  Unfortunately, all attempts were unsuccessful.  He is also training with the stainless steel cum through penis plug and butt plugs too.  He is always obedient and fun to play with.  Torturing his nipples, his cock, and or his ass is always great fun.  I enjoy waking up to his pics when he does something to please me.
sissy mary- We had a falling out over the weekend, fueled by her love of Jack Daniels.  And, of course, she came crawling back with a gift in hand.  We have since gotten back to normal; tying up her/my cock and balls in with her rope, staying in a constant state of denial, and her dressing up like the fag/slut she is.
MY puppy retard-There are some that just don't get it.  The goal is to please me, yet he is not put forth nearly enough effort and contact will cease if he fails to make any progress in training.
My panty boy on the other side of the pond-We are working on his weight loss currently.  Week one and two went well, and then he gained a pound.  This week will have to be more structured and strict with punishment to follow another failure.  We always have a great time when he performs for me in his pretty panties and always puts a smile on my face.
cuck-Is new and could have great potential.  I believe he has some secrets and this may be a fun adventure.
"e"- Always polite and considerate, but at times exhausting.  I am always grateful when he goes deeper into debt to please me.
"s"-Is also new, and (as of now) has failed to complete his first assignment and will be punished accordingly or just blocked and deleted.
"j"-We've built quite a unique rapport.  I'll be spending more time with him as I get more power.  He is always prompt with payments and has given me the chance to broaden my range in D/s relationships.  What we do is unlike any others and I'll be working to gain more power, trust and control.  We are working together towards a mutual goal. 
For the drive bys- Just because you send gifts doesn't mean you have earn my trust.  Those that do have it have put forth much more effort than you.  I am never opposed to money/gifts, however, one or two DOES NOT constitute trust.
My personal life
This past weekend was filled with various highs and lows.  Sunday, a family friend passed.  Needless to say, that was rather upsetting.  Yesterday, I received news that I will be seeing my husband very soon.  So, of course, I am going to be extremely busy the next few days/weeks.  Also, I finally got a cam, but for some reason or another it makes my computer get VERY hot.  When the fan turns on it makes an awful grinding noise and I have a feeling that it is my computer's death rattle.  I have ordered a triple fan to keep under it and I hope that will prolong it's life.  Regardless, I want a new laptop.  The memory has been upgraded to capacity and the process can't be, so there are no other options.

Financial Domination

I enjoy the time I spend with my subs, however; I want money, gifts, and other tokens of appreciation.  Anyone can figure that out.  If you can't sacrifice for me, then I don't have time for you.  Ultimately, I am the one in control.  Your opinions can be kept to yourself.  I am not here to make friends, gossip, or tuck you into bed.  I want a new MacBook, jewelry, lingerie, and more than anything, I WANT YOUR MONEY!  If you want my attention on a regular basis, you will sacrifice.  I don't have to trust you, like you, or comfort you, but you need me.  Be grateful that I spend any of my precious time with you, so show it.  I have many other things to do that are way higher on my priority list.  I don't care what your excuses are, what they aren't, or whatever.  You'll crave me, need me, and properly worship me.  If I find that you are not properly serving me, you will be deleted. 

Some things that are NOT MY PROBLEM:
Your credit card debt.
Your broken TV.
Your miserable day.
Your friend's abusive boyfriend.
You lost your job.
Your bad relationships.
Your flabby belly or bald head.
Your foreclosure.
Your taxes.
And among others:
Your lack of payment methods (there are plenty, BTW).

I don't care if you think I am cold, mean, and/or greedy.  In fact, I really couldn't care less what you think of me.  I am extremely busy and I spend more time with those that are generous; but I also love flyby gifts.  Either way, you'll know that you have contributed to my happiness.  So, either pay up (on a regular basis), or leave me alone.

The female angler fish-I am here to fuck some shit up!

 

 

I always want more balls!

My husbands...

I woke up especially early and did my yoga.  Then I was off to run errands.  When I returned home, it felt like a sauna inside.  That couldn't stop me, I had to get things done, my dog was to be picked up in the afternoon.  Around 4 pm my friend calls to tell me that he and my ex husband (with his new wife) were on their way.  I haven't seen or spoke to my ex since the split.  So, they arrive, in a mini van full of kids, to retrieve my dog.  Well, at one point he was our dog. 
There they stood, our (my ex's, mine, and my husband's) friend and my ex, at my front door.  I didn't know what I would feel when I opened the door.  I will tell you what I felt, absolutely nothing.  I was completely apathetic.  He barely resembled the person I had met so many years ago.  He's gained weight, has a fat cunt for a wife (who wasn't even adult enough to get out of the car and meet me), and a whole litter of children that aren't his.  I invited them in and we talked for a few minutes.  I said my goodbyes to my dog, we've been through SO much together.  The ex loaded up our dog and his food.  And they were gone.
Today will be spent waiting for the air conditioner to be fixed, swimming, and then the long journey south.  My husband is fully aware that the ex was here and picked up the dog.  He is secure enough to know that I have absolutely NO interest in the ex.  We have a very strong marriage and he knows that.
As far as my fun, playtime, and shopping goes, well, it hasn't gone.  No playing (except a little Tuesday and this morning), no fun, and no shopping...yuck!  I want to play and shop tonight and tomorrow!  Be ready for me!

Today and tomorrow

I am going to be extremely busy.  I have a lot to do and not enough time to do it in.  I woke up at 6 am today so that I could fit in a quick workout and check emails, before I have to run errands.  I hope that the weather clears up so that I can get some sunbathing done, but that doesn't look likely.  I'll be around and about, off and on.  I also received some lovely new shoes and need to get the pics posted.  Be sure to check out My Dirty Panties link, as I had added some of my regular (vanilla) clothes and shoes.

Pretty in pink!

These are awesome!

Fun with slave jeff

Yesterday slave jeff was on his way out of town, a little road trip.  We've been discussing anal stretching lately.  So, he stopped on his way and purchased the set of butt plugs.  The smallest is 6" x 1.5", the medium is 7" x 1.7", and largest one is 9" x 2".  We, of course, started with the smallest.  He wore it for about an hour, before, "It got to be torture".  After he removed it, he was extremely aroused, so I made him wear clothes pins on his nipples for a while.  When they were good and tender, he pinched them with his fingernail.  Hard.  Still aroused, I made him pinch them harder.  With an unrelenting erection, I told him to stroke himself, slowly, but he wasn't allowed to cum.  He did as he was told.  He's constantly teased and denied, in fact, the entire time we've been playing (about a month, now), he has had only one release.  My goal is to have him in panties (which he wears now, almost daily) with the cum through penis plug in (still working on long term), and the 9" butt plug in, while sucking cock.

 Butt plug is in.

In panties.

Penis plug.

This is how it will be.

I will not chase you down.  I am far too busy to find you.  You will come to me.  You need me.  Daily contact and progress reports will be made (initiated by you).  If you're truly sincere; you'll start by sending a gift, cash, e-gift card, etc.  I have come across way too many that are seeking a free wank.  I don't have time for that.  The subs that I keep in my company are very privileged and know that.  I am good at what I do.  I push limits, tease, deny, discipline, feminize, and I enjoy every minute of it.  I, however, love money too.  I will take your money and gifts and you'll get pleasure knowing that you've made me happy.  That is your goal, to please me at any expense.  I have different tasks for different boys.   They vary from NT to edging.  These tasks can be bought or earned.
On a side note, I need a cuck that will fund my sexapades.  Hopefully in a few weeks I will be seeing my husband for the first time in 19 months.  There are travel expenses, hotel, lingerie (for me), and toys that are needed.  This cuck will spare no expense to ensure that our sex is nothing short of euphoric.   I also want the liberator wedge/ramp.  It can be found here.
I also received my Victoria's secret package yesterday and if you'd like to see what I got, you can purchase the pics.  3/$10.

My foul fucking mood

Yes, I am moody, unpredictable, and irritable.  The good news I received on Monday wasn't as good as I thought it was.   After being so excited and elated; I got information yesterday that not only negated the good news, but was borderline bad news.  All that I was looking forward to was destroyed.  Thus, my foul fucking mood.  So, now it's time to put myself back together, buck up and deal with it in a spiteful manner.  I am not one to allow someone to fuck with me or my family.  Long story short:  someone didn't do their job properly, and now I'll be sure they don't have one anymore.  I will compose myself, as I spent most of yesterday in shock, now I am angry.  Granted, even if the lazy fucker loses their job, it probably won't change my situation, but I'll at least feel better. 
Anyway, with all this shit going on in my personal life, I haven't had much time to get anything else done.  I hope everyone reading this takes the time to do something to put a smile back on my face.

Sissy mary

My bitch, sissy mary, was inconsiderate and rather defiant this weekend.  She was sent to buy more rope (there was a situation on Friday), a mic, and the week's groceries.  Instead, that dirty little whore took it upon herself to stop at the pub instead of returning home.  I waited, albeit not long, but nonetheless I waited for her return.  Come to find out:  after leaving the pub, she went home, tied up my cock and balls, put on her sissy panties, and went clubbing.  WTF?!?!  Seriously, clubbing.  I am so disappointed that I don't even have words for such a filthy, little, slut.

Another busy day.

Today started with some unexpected good news.  I have A LOT to do.  In addition to my regular daily activities, I also need to update my Panties site, Talk Sugar account, and post some new pics. *sheesh*
I am so happy that I will be seeing my husband much sooner than I had expected.  I will be spending more time doing yoga and sunbathing.  I also will be setting up a set schedule of my availability.  This schedule will be nonnegotiable and may change at any time to suit me.  My play times will vary and that is why I am perfecting my TS account.  I am also going to make a new page where an application to serve and tasks can be bought.  So, needless to say I am going to be busy, busy, busy!

Yesterday

I was terribly busy yesterday.  I woke up at about 7 am and scurried around the house quickly.  I needed to be out the door by 8:30.  At 8:40 I was in my car and off to start my day.  First stop was the bank, which was fine.  I realized I needed gas before my journey, so I stopped at the closest gas station.  The first pump I pulled into didn't have the "pay at the pump" feature, so I drove around to the next one.  When I got out to start pumping gas, there was a ignorant-redneck-fucktard on the other side of the pump.  He stuck his fat face out his window and said, "You got a number I can git?" 
I, of  course said, "No."
His reply floored me, he said, "I saw how you were looking at me, lemme git yer number."
I showed him my wedding rings and said, "Why don't you ask my husband?"
He promptly showed me his wedding band and said, "So, I'm married too."
Anyway, he tried to flatter me and whatever it was he thought was flirting, but I was just annoyed.  He finally drove off with his poor little ego bruised.
After driving for (what seemed like) forever; going to my appointment, several stores and driving some more, I was home and exhausted.  I wanted to nap, but that wasn't in the cards for me.  I was mean and irritable.  I finally went to sleep just before 10 pm. 
Now, after a nice and restful slumber, I am ready to tackle the day full steam ahead.  Beware:  I might be a little feisty today. 

From my retard

I would like to formally apologize to you, my beautiful Princess, for not following your instructions.  Princess is always right.  I am always wrong.  It is important to obey the Princess without hesitation or question. 

I want it all!

I love the power I have.  I know I can make boys into mush.  
I love that they will do as I say.  The control and power are very rewarding.
When I want something, I get it.  I always get what I want. 
I have made boys cry, more than once.I love to push limits; mentally, physically, or financially.
I love when subs entertain me, send me pics, and sacrifice for my happiness.
When we play or tasks are assigned, I always get a thrill; knowing that it's all for me.

There is a burning smell coming from my computer

I don't know why or from what, but I have the feeling that this iBook might not be around much longer. 

Today

Today I will be editing a new foot video, lying in the sun, playing, and then girls night tonight!  I am going to have a better day today, and there are no two ways about it!  I also will be posting some new sub pics and maybe on cam a little bit.  

A REALLY BAD FUCKING DAY

Today started as most, 2 cups of coffee and 2 cigarettes.  I had the chance to play some this morning and that was fun.  It was all down hill from there.  My necklace broke, I dislocated my shoulder, and I am at the end of my rope.  I am livid, frustrated, and pretty fucking mean right now.  I suggest that  if you decide to contact me; proceed with caution.  I am not pleasant right now.  I am going to take a hot shower, put on some comfy pajamas.  Maybe I'll be in a better humor later...but it's not looking good. 

:(

From Subbie

so i'm having a difficult time writing this, because its hard to do anything that takes thought when You've got a chubby. this is how Women are able to so easily rule men if they choose to do so. all they have to do is get us hard, then boss us around. as long as they keep us hard, they stay in control. anyway, the reason i'm writing this is because i wish to let the world know how perfect Princess Above and Beyond is. Her name speaks for itself, She is a princess, and she is above and beyond anything you have ever imagined. i worship Her unconditionally. i need Her. i crave Her. i go chaste because She says. it kills me to do so, as i become puddy when all the blood stays in my stiffie and theres nothing left for my other head so i don't think straight or at all. but thats the way i like it, i love not having to think because i'm lucky enough to have Princess to think for me and tell me what to do. This is why i exist, to do as She says, and it makes me so happy that i get to be a part of Her life.

Blah (bitching)

I had a lot of fun last night and not so much today.  I was up late and up early.  YUCK!  I didn't get ANYTHING done today.  My computer (that I dropped last week) is making strange grinding and crackling noises.  My day was all planned out but due to extenuating circumstances nothing has been accomplished.  I am frustrated with this old computer, pissed that I didn't get anything done, and all around just BLAH.  I have been trying to write but can't seem to get much done at all today.  No yoga, no sunbathing, and not much cleaning...
So, tonight, I am going to hang out with the fam, drink some wine, and chill on the couch (minus the whip).  I haven't done much today, why start now!

 

3 day bi-weekly deep cleaning

Every other week I deep clean the house.  I do this because:
1) I take pride in having a sparkling clean home.  
2) I actually enjoy it, (yes, believe it or not) I do.
3) No one can clean to my standards (as quickly and thoroughly as I do) .
4) I only have to "touch up" in between.
The actual cleaning is done on Sunday morning.  I usually start on Friday with little things, like washing rugs, laundry, and dusting.  Saturday's cleaning is similar with other light prep for the "deep" clean.  On Sunday, I scrub the grout, mop the house 3 times, clean the windows/mirrors, polish the marble/stainless steel, vacuum, dust base boards/chair rail/ceiling fans, and completely sanitize everything in the bathroom.  This is done in about 3 hours.  Yes, I am that good.

What I want

I want honest and devoted subs and slaves.
They must be willing to sacrifice for my happiness.
We'll shop together and they'll foot the bill.
I want to build a rapport with them.
They'll do as they're told, without question because they trust me fully.
When they have a bad day I will comfort them.
That is not to be mistaken for daily whining.
They will feel safe with me and enjoy my demands.
I want to be spoiled without having to ask.
They will strive to please me and think of me constantly.
My kindness is not to be confused for weakness.
I have VERY little patience.  Once they're gone, they're gone.

Completely random

1.  I don't like chocolate.
2.  I like raw spinach, but not cooked.
3.  I love music trivia.
4.  I hate camping.
5.  I love to play Super Mario (old and new).
6.  I still have CDs from high school.
7.  I love the smell after it rains.
8.  I don't cry during movies.
9.  I love olives.
10.  I'd rather have edamame than potato chips.
11.  I really like astrology, a lot.
12.  I am not religious at all.
13.  I hate the cold.
14.  I have never skied (water or snow).
15.  I yoga almost everyday, but still can barely balance on one foot.
16.  I am a plethora of music knowledge.
17.  I am really laid back.
18.  I commit all of the 7 deadly sins (almost) daily.
19.  I love shoes.
20.  I am not free.  And either is my time.
21.  I hate Bailey's Irish Cream.
22.  My favorite liquor is Vodka (Grey Goose, etc.)
23.  I have a weakness for peanut butter.
24.  I am not a true sadist, I do have a heart.
25.  I love to tease, and have been called one for many years. ;)

ME! ME! ME!

“I will not be concerned at other men's not knowing me; I will be concerned at my own want of ability.”-Confucius
I have been around (in and out of) “the scene” for about 7 or 8 years.  Your kink may not be my kink, but I respect it all the same. With that being said, you don’t have to like me. Trust me I, will not lose sleep over it.  I improve myself daily, either physically, mentally, or intellectually.  I read, write, and research.  Whatever I do, I always put forth 100% effort.   I am focused, determined, and stubborn.    

I am a plethora of useful knowledge. I enjoy a lot of different subjects: history, sciences (most), religion (any and all), cultures, neuro-linguistic programming (and other types of psychology), and laws/criminal justice. "Two things are infinite: the universe and human stupidity; and I'm not sure about the universe." -Albert Einstein

I detest laziness, stupidity, and ignorance. I can be pleasant, funny, and witty but I can also be a raging, fucking, cunt. I am not a pro domme, nor do I want to be. I might, however, point and laugh at you relentlessly. It is all about me, don't EVER forget that. I am definitely superior. You will spoil me, and give me all I want! In return you may get: my time via chat or email, pictures, tasks, or nothing at all. If you are trying to figure out how to fit me into your budget, I can help. We can work together to eliminate all of your unnecessary expenses, to better serve ME! I do not use any drugs, as I find that there are better ways to achieve euphoria. I loved to be spoiled, pampered, and complimented; but, I am also impatient, stubborn, and intolerant to disrespect. I always get my way and I deserve nothing but the best. 
I think Marilyn Monroe said it best: "I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

I am (usually) not overly aggressive, sadistic, or demanding. I always play by the "SSC" rule; so if I feel that you don't fit into all the proper categories, I will not continue. I will get into your head, your heart, and your wallet. I will be the first person you think of when you wake up, the last person you think about before bed, and the ONLY one in your dreams...That way I know that my happiness is your top priority.
I have a great (and twisted) sense of humor. I do like to laugh and have fun. I love when someone can converse in a manner that is intelligent, clever, and humorous. Not everything has to be SO serious.
“No excellent soul is exempt from a mixture of madness.”-Aristotle