Last weekend and updates

Weekends are always hectic.  I have SO much fun playing with my boys.  I also took a whole bunch of new pics.  I have been doing a bit of local traveling, which is always fun.  Sunday was especially busy, around 4 pm, I realized I hadn't eaten since Saturday.  I went in search of some Chinese food, and couldn't find anything suitable.  So I went to a BBQ restaurant and asked to place a take out order.  As I was ordering. the cashier asked if another customer (whose food was ready) could pay.  I patiently stepped aside as the other customer handed him a credit card.  The cashier asked, "Do you have cash?  Our credit card machine is down."  I was standing there with just my keys and bank card, and half jokingly said, "Well, I guess I am out of luck."  The guy was paying cash for his food and asked how much my dinner was going to be.  He handed the cashier some more cash and was very polite as he left.  Now I know that all restaurants have the old carbon paper credit card machines, for exactly this kind of situation.  I, however, was very pleased with my free dinner.  I had every intention of paying for my meal, but it is always a pleasant surprise to not have to.  I get such a thrill when boys willingly hand over cash to make me happy. 
Some updates
My little bitch-He's been sucking cock to please me.  Last night he was wearing lipstick and panties when the guy came on his face and told him that he was doing a bad job.
sissy mary-Is going to remain chaste until further notice as well as bound for as long as possible daily.
slave jeff-has made the big move to a place where prostitution is legal...YAY for me!  Soon he'll be my whore, to suck cock and have his ass filled for money.
slave "j"- Is now on a schedule for release and chastity.  Limited orgasms, porn, and access to certain sites.
chris-Has been told to lose weight.  His weigh in was yesterday and has yet to tell me the news (gain/loss).  I am always disappointed when there is no change or gain.  Although I can tell that he's getting more toned, because his panties fit much better now.
subbie- Is still trying to impress me with his sweet words.  I always enjoy hearing how much one is devoted to me.
Also, my birthday is on the horizon.  I'll be making a new wish list and planning a get away for a few days. 

What gets me all hot and bothered...

POWER.  CONTROL.  RESPECT.
There is just something about having boys hand over their hard earned cash that excites me.  Whether it's a completely random occurrence, shopping spree, or buying my panties, I always get that warm tingly feeling.   I have always loved knowing they're trying to impress me.  I love anytime they try.  For as long as I can remember, I have had boys tripping over themselves to open my doors, buy my drinks, and doing other activities to entertain me.  Boys that truly want for my happiness, to entertain me, to worship my every word, that is devotion.  I love money, gifts, poetry, art work, and pictures.  I especially enjoy making a boy squirm.  There is a certain thrill that comes with inflicting pain to another, that I have always had.  Now, my kinks may not be your kinks, but it is what it is.

Perfection...

Have you ever had a few minutes of sheer euphoria?  When nothing else matters?  The moment that you never want to end?  It's a feeling of pure perfection.  That moment you say to yourself, "This is it, this is what I've been waiting for!"  And it's better than you could have ever imagined.  Elated, euphoric, and blissful, aren't nearly descriptive enough...

Exceeding expectations

This weekend has been an emotional roller coaster, from one extreme to another (emotionally).  This has lead me to make some serious changes in my life.  I have to really focus on time management, and setting a regular schedule.  I will set a "regular" routine and set (approximately) amount of time for family, fun, and me.  My moods and/or emotions can change with the blink of an eye.  I am still undecided about some other topics, however, I think I already know what needs to be done.  So, happy Sunday. 

Pursuit

The anticipation was exhausting, the disappointment was devastating, the risk was maximum, and once again I found myself apathetic to the consequences.  Accomplishment was the only option.  I fought for what I want, headstrong and determined I pursued my goal.  I chased and battled for what I believe in and won.  The thrill was euphoric.
I continue to push forward daily.
Everyday is one step closer.
Achieving my goals are my top priority.
I will not be pushed aside, denied, or misled.
I will not be lied to, manipulated, or used.
I may be colder, harder, or more cynical because of it, but I have no regrets.  
Now I am even stronger and more determined than ever.

A brief summary

Last week was full of a lot of highs and lows.  I believe great progress has been made with a couple subs, but at the same  time there are also a few less.  Some are completely useless while others continue to flourish.  I do have some really great pics that slave jeff sent and I can't wait to post them!
As far as my weekend went; I wasn't feeling well, along with some personal issues, and some disappointment, it was just kinda blah.  I am going to be posting again tomorrow.  Today is going to be rather busy, I have tons of maintenance to catch up on.   I'll be more detailed later, posting pics, sharing stories, and whatnot.

FFS!

To start, I have been CRAZY busy.  If you're unable to approach me in a polite and respectful manner, FUCK OFF!  Some things shouldn't need to be said.  I always enjoy waking up to e-gift cards, cash, and pics of my subs being creative.  I will be keeping track of progress and posting pics/updates here, for now. 
UPDATES:
little bitch dog, "shaggy"- Has been ordered to find a "top" male to "violate" him.  He is always happy to greet me and eager to please.  Last week we were practicing with a cucumber to get his pussy ready for the real deal (he really should have a butt plug stretching kit to train with).   I also have some lovely pics of the little bitch; on all fours, cucumber in ass, like the whore he is.
slave jeff- While in Vegas, I sent him to suck tranny cock while wearing my panties.  Unfortunately, all attempts were unsuccessful.  He is also training with the stainless steel cum through penis plug and butt plugs too.  He is always obedient and fun to play with.  Torturing his nipples, his cock, and or his ass is always great fun.  I enjoy waking up to his pics when he does something to please me.
sissy mary- We had a falling out over the weekend, fueled by her love of Jack Daniels.  And, of course, she came crawling back with a gift in hand.  We have since gotten back to normal; tying up her/my cock and balls in with her rope, staying in a constant state of denial, and her dressing up like the fag/slut she is.
MY puppy retard-There are some that just don't get it.  The goal is to please me, yet he is not put forth nearly enough effort and contact will cease if he fails to make any progress in training.
My panty boy on the other side of the pond-We are working on his weight loss currently.  Week one and two went well, and then he gained a pound.  This week will have to be more structured and strict with punishment to follow another failure.  We always have a great time when he performs for me in his pretty panties and always puts a smile on my face.
cuck-Is new and could have great potential.  I believe he has some secrets and this may be a fun adventure.
"e"- Always polite and considerate, but at times exhausting.  I am always grateful when he goes deeper into debt to please me.
"s"-Is also new, and (as of now) has failed to complete his first assignment and will be punished accordingly or just blocked and deleted.
"j"-We've built quite a unique rapport.  I'll be spending more time with him as I get more power.  He is always prompt with payments and has given me the chance to broaden my range in D/s relationships.  What we do is unlike any others and I'll be working to gain more power, trust and control.  We are working together towards a mutual goal. 
For the drive bys- Just because you send gifts doesn't mean you have earn my trust.  Those that do have it have put forth much more effort than you.  I am never opposed to money/gifts, however, one or two DOES NOT constitute trust.
My personal life
This past weekend was filled with various highs and lows.  Sunday, a family friend passed.  Needless to say, that was rather upsetting.  Yesterday, I received news that I will be seeing my husband very soon.  So, of course, I am going to be extremely busy the next few days/weeks.  Also, I finally got a cam, but for some reason or another it makes my computer get VERY hot.  When the fan turns on it makes an awful grinding noise and I have a feeling that it is my computer's death rattle.  I have ordered a triple fan to keep under it and I hope that will prolong it's life.  Regardless, I want a new laptop.  The memory has been upgraded to capacity and the process can't be, so there are no other options.

Financial Domination

I enjoy the time I spend with my subs, however; I want money, gifts, and other tokens of appreciation.  Anyone can figure that out.  If you can't sacrifice for me, then I don't have time for you.  Ultimately, I am the one in control.  Your opinions can be kept to yourself.  I am not here to make friends, gossip, or tuck you into bed.  I want a new MacBook, jewelry, lingerie, and more than anything, I WANT YOUR MONEY!  If you want my attention on a regular basis, you will sacrifice.  I don't have to trust you, like you, or comfort you, but you need me.  Be grateful that I spend any of my precious time with you, so show it.  I have many other things to do that are way higher on my priority list.  I don't care what your excuses are, what they aren't, or whatever.  You'll crave me, need me, and properly worship me.  If I find that you are not properly serving me, you will be deleted. 

Some things that are NOT MY PROBLEM:
Your credit card debt.
Your broken TV.
Your miserable day.
Your friend's abusive boyfriend.
You lost your job.
Your bad relationships.
Your flabby belly or bald head.
Your foreclosure.
Your taxes.
And among others:
Your lack of payment methods (there are plenty, BTW).

I don't care if you think I am cold, mean, and/or greedy.  In fact, I really couldn't care less what you think of me.  I am extremely busy and I spend more time with those that are generous; but I also love flyby gifts.  Either way, you'll know that you have contributed to my happiness.  So, either pay up (on a regular basis), or leave me alone.