Last week

For the past few weeks I have had the luxury of being able to take, edit, and upload pics every Sunday.  That luxury has ended.  I was also able to spend the day chatting, shopping, and socializing.  I have been spreading myself too thin; and in my attempts to give everyone a fair chance, I have ultimately sacrificed my own fun.  It's very easy to get caught up with playtime and fun.  It is also selfish to believe that I will always "just be here".  With that being said, I will "be here" for those deserving of my time, energy, and concern.  I believe that it isn't unfair or unreasonable for me to reserve my time for those that are worthy. 
Now, on to some updates.
I am quite proud of butt slut's progress thus far.  His photography skills are fabulous and obedience is extraordinary.  Check out the pics on the "subs" page.
shaggy has been touch and go lately, and is a piss poor excuse for a bitch.
retard has been around and about lately...
Mi dulce niño pequeño de Puerto Rico made an appearance online this week, and always makes me smile.  
panntyslut is new and has a few lessons to learn, probably the hard way too.
With his big move to Vegas, jeff has been quite busy.  I am still seeking a proper tranny for him.
Scotland panty boy has disappointed me for the last time.  No further contact will be allowed.
Sissy mary has been away on business.
Joseph and I have been slowly re-entering the world of a strong D/s bond.  
mark is eager to play and not so eager to show appreciation.*tsk*tsk* 
Anyway, my husband's birthday was Friday and mine is in 9 days.  Be sure to check out all my wish lists!

Some updates and such

The past 4 weeks have been rather hectic in my personal life, although that is not the purpose of this blog.  I've been bitten by the creative bug, but haven't been organized enough to get it all out.  This past weekend I made a corset with duct tape, discovered why I have never worn cling wrap (also inspired by that experience), and spent some time (trying) to relax.
Last week I had the pleasure of chatting with a few new boys.  I have recently started monitoring the progress of (for anonymity reasons) "butt slut's" anal stretching.  It is a mutual decision for butt slut to not be "owned" by me, and that allows  an opportunity for  some "freedom" with some of the projects.  The creative and artistic effort put forth by butt slut is rather impressive. 
Also last week I had the pleasure of being entertained while sunbathing by mark.  The show went as follows:  First he started in his wife's panties (clean), then I had him model his panties, followed by seeking out his wife's dirty panties, then inserting into his mouth the gusset of the wife's (dirty) panties, while still in his own panties he was instructed to slowly stroke himself and tell me when he was going to cum.  That was when he was told to stop everything and remove both pairs of panties.  FUN! FUN!
I also have been taking some pics of my own and been spending quite a bit of time on a new social networking site that is like facebook, but with kink.
FetConnect.Com - A Fetish Network for all your kinky bdsm friends
Anyway, that is where I've been hanging out.  I am also revising my birthday wish list to include: 
Sea salt pedicure
Brazilian and eyebrow waxing @ European Waxing Center
Facial and 90 minute deep tissue massage @ Massage Envy
and
Highlights, low lights, trim and style @ Moda 

A little insight

For all the misanthropic, fake, wanna-be submissive boys:
Don't fucking bother.
You're not fooling anyone.
I see you for what you are.
I am smarter than you.
I don't want anything to do with you.
.
Now, on to real submissive boys (most should know already, but newbies may not yet).
You may approach me (or ANY Domme) in a polite & respectful manner.
Do your home work, read my profile, blogs, and so on BEFORE asking 10,000 questions.
Use some common sense, FFS!
If I am going to be playing with you, be ready/prepared.
I don't do R/T at the moment. However, when I do, you will not be touching me.  If I am to touch you (with my hands feet, crop, cane, etc.), you'll be honored and a grateful. 
Do as you're told.  Obedience is the goal. 
Don't lie, waste my time, or try to manipulate me.
Trickery doesn't work. 
I indulge MY fetishes.  Yours are secondary. 
You are for my amusement, use, and/or entertainment only. 
Do NOT piss me off in an attempt to be used, abused, humiliated, etc.  It won't work.
You are NOT of any sexual interest to me,  my husband is the ONLY one who pleases me sexually.
As stated, I am married.  VERY HAPPILY MARRIED.  You will respect that.

My Fetishes include but are not limited to:
Financial Domination
Teasing
Edge play
Foot (boot/shoe also), Leg, Ass, Breast Worship
Nipple Torture
Cock/Ball Torture
Wax play
Caning
Flogging
Spanking
Hair pulling
Cuckoldry
Humiliation (only for a select few)
Panties, stockings, pantyhose, lingerie, corsets, etc.
Forced Fem.
Chastity
Forced Masturbation
Orgasm control/denial
Bondage
Discipline
Sadism

I want honesty, sincerity, and fun.  If you're chosen to serve me, you'll know.  

Birthday October 26th...take note.

I have had sissy mary go through and pick some items that might suit me.  Some have ben added to my wish lists, some have not.  Here are my Birthday Wish Lists.
Amazon & Universal
Fetish Factory
Nordstrom
I also want a weekend at The Breakers-Superior Suite and Spa (approx. $4,000)

Renovated luxurious one-bedroom suite-600 square feet with master bedroom and attached bathroom with whirlpool tub and separate shower and private living room.

Guest-room experience includes: Flat screen TV and DVD/CD player, radio alarm clock with iPod docking station, in-room movies, Playstation video games, in-room check-out, wireless keyboard, mini bar, hair dryer, private electronic safe, The Breakers private-label toiletries, plush bathrobes and slippers, luxury linens and duvets, exclusive bamboo towels. 

Last weekend and updates

Weekends are always hectic.  I have SO much fun playing with my boys.  I also took a whole bunch of new pics.  I have been doing a bit of local traveling, which is always fun.  Sunday was especially busy, around 4 pm, I realized I hadn't eaten since Saturday.  I went in search of some Chinese food, and couldn't find anything suitable.  So I went to a BBQ restaurant and asked to place a take out order.  As I was ordering. the cashier asked if another customer (whose food was ready) could pay.  I patiently stepped aside as the other customer handed him a credit card.  The cashier asked, "Do you have cash?  Our credit card machine is down."  I was standing there with just my keys and bank card, and half jokingly said, "Well, I guess I am out of luck."  The guy was paying cash for his food and asked how much my dinner was going to be.  He handed the cashier some more cash and was very polite as he left.  Now I know that all restaurants have the old carbon paper credit card machines, for exactly this kind of situation.  I, however, was very pleased with my free dinner.  I had every intention of paying for my meal, but it is always a pleasant surprise to not have to.  I get such a thrill when boys willingly hand over cash to make me happy. 
Some updates
My little bitch-He's been sucking cock to please me.  Last night he was wearing lipstick and panties when the guy came on his face and told him that he was doing a bad job.
sissy mary-Is going to remain chaste until further notice as well as bound for as long as possible daily.
slave jeff-has made the big move to a place where prostitution is legal...YAY for me!  Soon he'll be my whore, to suck cock and have his ass filled for money.
slave "j"- Is now on a schedule for release and chastity.  Limited orgasms, porn, and access to certain sites.
chris-Has been told to lose weight.  His weigh in was yesterday and has yet to tell me the news (gain/loss).  I am always disappointed when there is no change or gain.  Although I can tell that he's getting more toned, because his panties fit much better now.
subbie- Is still trying to impress me with his sweet words.  I always enjoy hearing how much one is devoted to me.
Also, my birthday is on the horizon.  I'll be making a new wish list and planning a get away for a few days. 

What gets me all hot and bothered...

POWER.  CONTROL.  RESPECT.
There is just something about having boys hand over their hard earned cash that excites me.  Whether it's a completely random occurrence, shopping spree, or buying my panties, I always get that warm tingly feeling.   I have always loved knowing they're trying to impress me.  I love anytime they try.  For as long as I can remember, I have had boys tripping over themselves to open my doors, buy my drinks, and doing other activities to entertain me.  Boys that truly want for my happiness, to entertain me, to worship my every word, that is devotion.  I love money, gifts, poetry, art work, and pictures.  I especially enjoy making a boy squirm.  There is a certain thrill that comes with inflicting pain to another, that I have always had.  Now, my kinks may not be your kinks, but it is what it is.

Perfection...

Have you ever had a few minutes of sheer euphoria?  When nothing else matters?  The moment that you never want to end?  It's a feeling of pure perfection.  That moment you say to yourself, "This is it, this is what I've been waiting for!"  And it's better than you could have ever imagined.  Elated, euphoric, and blissful, aren't nearly descriptive enough...

Exceeding expectations

This weekend has been an emotional roller coaster, from one extreme to another (emotionally).  This has lead me to make some serious changes in my life.  I have to really focus on time management, and setting a regular schedule.  I will set a "regular" routine and set (approximately) amount of time for family, fun, and me.  My moods and/or emotions can change with the blink of an eye.  I am still undecided about some other topics, however, I think I already know what needs to be done.  So, happy Sunday. 

Pursuit

The anticipation was exhausting, the disappointment was devastating, the risk was maximum, and once again I found myself apathetic to the consequences.  Accomplishment was the only option.  I fought for what I want, headstrong and determined I pursued my goal.  I chased and battled for what I believe in and won.  The thrill was euphoric.
I continue to push forward daily.
Everyday is one step closer.
Achieving my goals are my top priority.
I will not be pushed aside, denied, or misled.
I will not be lied to, manipulated, or used.
I may be colder, harder, or more cynical because of it, but I have no regrets.  
Now I am even stronger and more determined than ever.

A brief summary

Last week was full of a lot of highs and lows.  I believe great progress has been made with a couple subs, but at the same  time there are also a few less.  Some are completely useless while others continue to flourish.  I do have some really great pics that slave jeff sent and I can't wait to post them!
As far as my weekend went; I wasn't feeling well, along with some personal issues, and some disappointment, it was just kinda blah.  I am going to be posting again tomorrow.  Today is going to be rather busy, I have tons of maintenance to catch up on.   I'll be more detailed later, posting pics, sharing stories, and whatnot.

FFS!

To start, I have been CRAZY busy.  If you're unable to approach me in a polite and respectful manner, FUCK OFF!  Some things shouldn't need to be said.  I always enjoy waking up to e-gift cards, cash, and pics of my subs being creative.  I will be keeping track of progress and posting pics/updates here, for now. 
UPDATES:
little bitch dog, "shaggy"- Has been ordered to find a "top" male to "violate" him.  He is always happy to greet me and eager to please.  Last week we were practicing with a cucumber to get his pussy ready for the real deal (he really should have a butt plug stretching kit to train with).   I also have some lovely pics of the little bitch; on all fours, cucumber in ass, like the whore he is.
slave jeff- While in Vegas, I sent him to suck tranny cock while wearing my panties.  Unfortunately, all attempts were unsuccessful.  He is also training with the stainless steel cum through penis plug and butt plugs too.  He is always obedient and fun to play with.  Torturing his nipples, his cock, and or his ass is always great fun.  I enjoy waking up to his pics when he does something to please me.
sissy mary- We had a falling out over the weekend, fueled by her love of Jack Daniels.  And, of course, she came crawling back with a gift in hand.  We have since gotten back to normal; tying up her/my cock and balls in with her rope, staying in a constant state of denial, and her dressing up like the fag/slut she is.
MY puppy retard-There are some that just don't get it.  The goal is to please me, yet he is not put forth nearly enough effort and contact will cease if he fails to make any progress in training.
My panty boy on the other side of the pond-We are working on his weight loss currently.  Week one and two went well, and then he gained a pound.  This week will have to be more structured and strict with punishment to follow another failure.  We always have a great time when he performs for me in his pretty panties and always puts a smile on my face.
cuck-Is new and could have great potential.  I believe he has some secrets and this may be a fun adventure.
"e"- Always polite and considerate, but at times exhausting.  I am always grateful when he goes deeper into debt to please me.
"s"-Is also new, and (as of now) has failed to complete his first assignment and will be punished accordingly or just blocked and deleted.
"j"-We've built quite a unique rapport.  I'll be spending more time with him as I get more power.  He is always prompt with payments and has given me the chance to broaden my range in D/s relationships.  What we do is unlike any others and I'll be working to gain more power, trust and control.  We are working together towards a mutual goal. 
For the drive bys- Just because you send gifts doesn't mean you have earn my trust.  Those that do have it have put forth much more effort than you.  I am never opposed to money/gifts, however, one or two DOES NOT constitute trust.
My personal life
This past weekend was filled with various highs and lows.  Sunday, a family friend passed.  Needless to say, that was rather upsetting.  Yesterday, I received news that I will be seeing my husband very soon.  So, of course, I am going to be extremely busy the next few days/weeks.  Also, I finally got a cam, but for some reason or another it makes my computer get VERY hot.  When the fan turns on it makes an awful grinding noise and I have a feeling that it is my computer's death rattle.  I have ordered a triple fan to keep under it and I hope that will prolong it's life.  Regardless, I want a new laptop.  The memory has been upgraded to capacity and the process can't be, so there are no other options.

Financial Domination

I enjoy the time I spend with my subs, however; I want money, gifts, and other tokens of appreciation.  Anyone can figure that out.  If you can't sacrifice for me, then I don't have time for you.  Ultimately, I am the one in control.  Your opinions can be kept to yourself.  I am not here to make friends, gossip, or tuck you into bed.  I want a new MacBook, jewelry, lingerie, and more than anything, I WANT YOUR MONEY!  If you want my attention on a regular basis, you will sacrifice.  I don't have to trust you, like you, or comfort you, but you need me.  Be grateful that I spend any of my precious time with you, so show it.  I have many other things to do that are way higher on my priority list.  I don't care what your excuses are, what they aren't, or whatever.  You'll crave me, need me, and properly worship me.  If I find that you are not properly serving me, you will be deleted. 

Some things that are NOT MY PROBLEM:
Your credit card debt.
Your broken TV.
Your miserable day.
Your friend's abusive boyfriend.
You lost your job.
Your bad relationships.
Your flabby belly or bald head.
Your foreclosure.
Your taxes.
And among others:
Your lack of payment methods (there are plenty, BTW).

I don't care if you think I am cold, mean, and/or greedy.  In fact, I really couldn't care less what you think of me.  I am extremely busy and I spend more time with those that are generous; but I also love flyby gifts.  Either way, you'll know that you have contributed to my happiness.  So, either pay up (on a regular basis), or leave me alone.

The female angler fish-I am here to fuck some shit up!

 

 

I always want more balls!

My husbands...

I woke up especially early and did my yoga.  Then I was off to run errands.  When I returned home, it felt like a sauna inside.  That couldn't stop me, I had to get things done, my dog was to be picked up in the afternoon.  Around 4 pm my friend calls to tell me that he and my ex husband (with his new wife) were on their way.  I haven't seen or spoke to my ex since the split.  So, they arrive, in a mini van full of kids, to retrieve my dog.  Well, at one point he was our dog. 
There they stood, our (my ex's, mine, and my husband's) friend and my ex, at my front door.  I didn't know what I would feel when I opened the door.  I will tell you what I felt, absolutely nothing.  I was completely apathetic.  He barely resembled the person I had met so many years ago.  He's gained weight, has a fat cunt for a wife (who wasn't even adult enough to get out of the car and meet me), and a whole litter of children that aren't his.  I invited them in and we talked for a few minutes.  I said my goodbyes to my dog, we've been through SO much together.  The ex loaded up our dog and his food.  And they were gone.
Today will be spent waiting for the air conditioner to be fixed, swimming, and then the long journey south.  My husband is fully aware that the ex was here and picked up the dog.  He is secure enough to know that I have absolutely NO interest in the ex.  We have a very strong marriage and he knows that.
As far as my fun, playtime, and shopping goes, well, it hasn't gone.  No playing (except a little Tuesday and this morning), no fun, and no shopping...yuck!  I want to play and shop tonight and tomorrow!  Be ready for me!

Today and tomorrow

I am going to be extremely busy.  I have a lot to do and not enough time to do it in.  I woke up at 6 am today so that I could fit in a quick workout and check emails, before I have to run errands.  I hope that the weather clears up so that I can get some sunbathing done, but that doesn't look likely.  I'll be around and about, off and on.  I also received some lovely new shoes and need to get the pics posted.  Be sure to check out My Dirty Panties link, as I had added some of my regular (vanilla) clothes and shoes.

Pretty in pink!

These are awesome!

Fun with slave jeff

Yesterday slave jeff was on his way out of town, a little road trip.  We've been discussing anal stretching lately.  So, he stopped on his way and purchased the set of butt plugs.  The smallest is 6" x 1.5", the medium is 7" x 1.7", and largest one is 9" x 2".  We, of course, started with the smallest.  He wore it for about an hour, before, "It got to be torture".  After he removed it, he was extremely aroused, so I made him wear clothes pins on his nipples for a while.  When they were good and tender, he pinched them with his fingernail.  Hard.  Still aroused, I made him pinch them harder.  With an unrelenting erection, I told him to stroke himself, slowly, but he wasn't allowed to cum.  He did as he was told.  He's constantly teased and denied, in fact, the entire time we've been playing (about a month, now), he has had only one release.  My goal is to have him in panties (which he wears now, almost daily) with the cum through penis plug in (still working on long term), and the 9" butt plug in, while sucking cock.

 Butt plug is in.

In panties.

Penis plug.

This is how it will be.

I will not chase you down.  I am far too busy to find you.  You will come to me.  You need me.  Daily contact and progress reports will be made (initiated by you).  If you're truly sincere; you'll start by sending a gift, cash, e-gift card, etc.  I have come across way too many that are seeking a free wank.  I don't have time for that.  The subs that I keep in my company are very privileged and know that.  I am good at what I do.  I push limits, tease, deny, discipline, feminize, and I enjoy every minute of it.  I, however, love money too.  I will take your money and gifts and you'll get pleasure knowing that you've made me happy.  That is your goal, to please me at any expense.  I have different tasks for different boys.   They vary from NT to edging.  These tasks can be bought or earned.
On a side note, I need a cuck that will fund my sexapades.  Hopefully in a few weeks I will be seeing my husband for the first time in 19 months.  There are travel expenses, hotel, lingerie (for me), and toys that are needed.  This cuck will spare no expense to ensure that our sex is nothing short of euphoric.   I also want the liberator wedge/ramp.  It can be found here.
I also received my Victoria's secret package yesterday and if you'd like to see what I got, you can purchase the pics.  3/$10.

My foul fucking mood

Yes, I am moody, unpredictable, and irritable.  The good news I received on Monday wasn't as good as I thought it was.   After being so excited and elated; I got information yesterday that not only negated the good news, but was borderline bad news.  All that I was looking forward to was destroyed.  Thus, my foul fucking mood.  So, now it's time to put myself back together, buck up and deal with it in a spiteful manner.  I am not one to allow someone to fuck with me or my family.  Long story short:  someone didn't do their job properly, and now I'll be sure they don't have one anymore.  I will compose myself, as I spent most of yesterday in shock, now I am angry.  Granted, even if the lazy fucker loses their job, it probably won't change my situation, but I'll at least feel better. 
Anyway, with all this shit going on in my personal life, I haven't had much time to get anything else done.  I hope everyone reading this takes the time to do something to put a smile back on my face.

Sissy mary

My bitch, sissy mary, was inconsiderate and rather defiant this weekend.  She was sent to buy more rope (there was a situation on Friday), a mic, and the week's groceries.  Instead, that dirty little whore took it upon herself to stop at the pub instead of returning home.  I waited, albeit not long, but nonetheless I waited for her return.  Come to find out:  after leaving the pub, she went home, tied up my cock and balls, put on her sissy panties, and went clubbing.  WTF?!?!  Seriously, clubbing.  I am so disappointed that I don't even have words for such a filthy, little, slut.

Another busy day.

Today started with some unexpected good news.  I have A LOT to do.  In addition to my regular daily activities, I also need to update my Panties site, Talk Sugar account, and post some new pics. *sheesh*
I am so happy that I will be seeing my husband much sooner than I had expected.  I will be spending more time doing yoga and sunbathing.  I also will be setting up a set schedule of my availability.  This schedule will be nonnegotiable and may change at any time to suit me.  My play times will vary and that is why I am perfecting my TS account.  I am also going to make a new page where an application to serve and tasks can be bought.  So, needless to say I am going to be busy, busy, busy!